OPEN MIC ARCHIVES
January, 1998

Updated January 27th. Sorry for the delay. We have been in Japan. Major report follows.

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small tricking

of white masses-

conjugating on

the utmost

point in heaven

burning a hole

in our delicate

pupils-

feeding your

soul full of

conspiracy and

always and forever

getting away with it

never being punished

for the harm that

is

done


-tugg-

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You are...


The stars in my sky that guide me
The fish in my sea that carry me
The blood in my heart that keeps me alive
The one in my life that will never hurt me


You are...


The wind in my hair that cools me
The fire in my eyes that warms me
The earth and the sky that hold me close
The air and the sea that surround me


You are...


The mountains that keep me so high
The lakes that forever calm me
The love that is in my heart
The one that will never hurt me

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Look around,

At the world all awry,

See what's there,

Then gone in the blink of an eye,

Seeing what's there,

And what's not there too,

A bless or a curse,

You decide,

To be cast aside by your friends unbound,

Or to have the knowledge,

Of all that's around.

Me I decided,

To choose the last choice,

As you can always find friends,

But knowledge can only be sought.

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STEPPING OVER THE EDGE


Stepping over the edge,

Into the deep blue sea.

Nowhere to go,

Nowhere to be.


Ravens flying high in the sky,

Or perched on a wall.

No one to catch me,

When I fall.


Cast over the edge,

Just like a stone.

No one to be with,

Just me, alone.


Crying out for someone to hear,

In return, the silence is in the air.

No one to love,

No one to hear.


Stepping over the edge,

into the deep blue sea.

Nowhere to go,

Nowhere to be.

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From a wire over my street

Some sneakers hang

Looking comfortable

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The bloodiest siege at heaven's gate

The fuel of fire is earthen hate

Burning golden gates and dewinged angels

Every demon dances and every devil mangles

It's time my friends, end game

Armageddon is upon us

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A tree bent backwards

Over a rising river grasps firmly

On to its own roots.


by Ben Sanchez

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sweet ambitions

torn apart by

bitter truths

dreams of nothing

hoping for all

trying not to fall

now beginning to

plea and bawl

where am i

who am i

why do they

wave goodbye

here alone

a young star

that has not yet shone

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Abstinence


The sun was churning, burning,

Like a little child begins with learning.


The frothy waters so crisp and clean,

Gave off a reflection of such a gleam..


In the north, in the south, in the east and west,

The powers lay hovering, not to die like the rest.


As the world falls apart, the strong lay weak,

And find out the true meaning of life, as we speak.

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My life nears an end

As i hold my mothers hand

The tears streamed down her face

As they discuss my case

I know i'm going to die

I wish my mother wouldn't cry

Now my time has come

For I am growing numb

i find it hard to breath

All i want is to say

Goodbye world, goodbye sweet day

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Starbuckets around,

Starbuckets in my sound,

I carry one by it's handle,

Grass dusted with glitter,

Watching a parade of shadowgas,

Twinkle twinkle little mother,

How your stars show,

Where is my moon princess,

there she is,

I can see her nailglare,

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Love

childish giggles

endless nights

dreamy days.....

Questions Questions

sleepless nights

flowing anger

loud voices in the night

crashing doors

pain

Love

childish giggles

endless nights

Dreamy days....

Questions Questions


Gecco@webtv.net

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Save Me From My Tears


I'm going to cry my life away...

I know I am.


Regretting lost regrets...

Reliving the past long to forget.


These tears are going to kill me...

I know they will.


Never ending liquid pain...

Marching down my sweet face...

Corrupting my sanity.


I'm going to drown under these tears...

I know I will.


Unless,...

You can give me a tissue.

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Benjamin don't you want your gun

go have your fun

shooting butterflies

and beer bottles near the ditch

where a witch

a malevolent witch

spoke over the rocks

embedded in the cement

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FADING LOVE


When love is gone, it is no more.

When it leaves, you close that door.

Though you know you'll find another,

He was your first real lover.

He came and went like a breeze on a summer day.

You'll always love him but not in that way.

It may be odd to walk the "single" walk.

After a while, though, you'll talk the "single" talk.

When love is gone, it is no more.

Then you'll find another and open a different door.

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Its dark inside the place I hide

my hole that I crawled in and died.

Its too bright out in the open air

out in this world that doesn't give a care.

I'm thinking of you

I don't know what to do.

Its too cold inside this box I built

and my mind as it fills with guilt.

Its too hot inside my head

sometimes wishing that I were dead.

Thinking of you, thinking of me

I wonder if this could ever be.

Its too quiet in both our eyes

but not telling any lies.

Super Cat

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The moon of the pale light

The stars of grace

The endless space

The night darkness

The movement of the dark people

All join on one night to become one

'Twas the people of us

And for all

Only the burning of the great fire may burn us

All join together this one night on Halloween

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the still form of a lost loved one

the busy chattering and bustle of

a family getting the funeral in order

people looking and then trying not

to look again towards the still

form of a lost loved one...

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And above it all, a child cries

Because his mother

Has no eyes

And she can't see

What's right or wrong

And he can't see

Why life is long

And muck and drab

go down the drain

And streets cry out

In pouring rain

And junkies lurch

While drunkards curse

And mom waits up

To call the hearse

And bombs explode

And bullets fly

And rape the land

And hear its cry

And above it all

A child cries

Because his mother

Has no eyes.

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Poets


Poets live

Poets dreams

live among us

Like whining critics

or

contemptuous scribes

of folly

and wastrel

and cold

obscurity

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ALONE

Activists

shout and spit

And strip themselves

of clothes and pretense

And in doing so

Lose accountability

Cars

zip by

Honking horns

Rubber tires

And world's turn

around the sun

Which, truth be told,

is NOT the

biggest star

in this galaxy

People meddle, muddled, raddled,

And fame forms puddles

where earthworms drown

Buildings sway

And cabbies curse

The lights all turn green

And I am alone again.

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"Homeless Woman"

Hunted red-rimmed eyes

long for food

and crusted pies

Ears escape

from burning lies

The world accepts

As true and wise

Muddy, flopping

Blistered feet

Encased

in muddy rags

Shuffle through

this muddy street

of butts and yolks

and shopping bags

And from the sun

a light is cast

Shadows fade and people pass

Today is her birthday

She will be sixty-one

Come noon.

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PAIN


The sun is shining in the sky


and I look up to ask it why


The pain we suffer is because of me


he's leaving, your sad, I just let it be.


I want you to be happy but there seems no way


perhaps the sun will shine another day.

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Dust of Ashes:

By Mariola


I can't grasp at anything real

So i touch the dust of ashes

I hold the flowers, now they are brittle and dead

I stare at photographs, our smiles are frozen

They will never repeat

I should be happy, for what i had

All i can ask is "why?"

And I feel so unloved

The melodies, that weren't trapped in the pictures,

Still play in my head

But I will never smile that way again

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Staring in Disbelief ~


Have you ever felt you were

On the outside

Looking in

At your own life

Staring in disbelief

Disbelief of yourself

Not understanding

How you got from

Where you were

To where you are

Now

Thinking that

Only yesterday

You were young

And now it's years

Later

And you can't believe

Your eyes

Have you ever felt you were

On the outside

Looking in

Looking at your own life

Staring in disbelief

At who you've

Become

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To S.M.B.


a lover in fantasy

friend in light

what makes a black heart

ache different from white?

a vision

CAUGHT

in the vise of my throat

made the answer clear...

there was no color

in my tears


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Alone


I know where

Your coming from

And I know where your at

Believe me your not alone

Having someone

To care for

and being their

Is great because

You don't roam

Being able to

Speak your mind

And showing

Your feelings,

Knowing their is someone

Who will simply wait

Taking a deep breathe

And saying I'm here makes

A person feel needed with cheer.

Because you aren't alone

open your arms,

Except their need

Wanting to be

Your friend is

Not greed.



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Squared away corners shadowed

allow me breath for fatal alert

most have been here have to

show me can it work I mean future

starting at five when will I stop

tis the season always tis the season

bleak dark or shine shine shine

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wherever you go I follow

whatever you do or say

I shall be empty without you

even for a moment of a day


remember my love forever

and why it continues to stay

today tomorrow and always

I shall find back my way


wherever you go I follow

if not with you then in dreams

our love is blessed by that feeling

and there are no walls between


wherever you go I follow

whatever you do or say

I shall be empty without you

even for a moment of a day


by Peter

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Last night, I sat alone.

Underneath the moon's iridescent glow.

I contemplated life

And the way things are supposed to be.

And as I felt

A single rain drop

Roll slowly down my face

I realized that

Maybe my place

In this crowed world

Is alone

In the darkness

Of the moon

And soon I realized

That the stream of flowing rain drops

Running down my face

Were my lonely tears

Wanting comfort under the moon.

jking@whitman.gmu.edu

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When I was twelve

I stood alone

On a vacant beach

The wind blew through

My hair and across my face

The ocean crashed

In thunderous booms

And people peeked

Through their windows

At the storm's torrents

Rain began to pour

Down on me and the sand

Making me cold and wet

And in all of my discomforts

It was the first time

I felt completely free.

~Jenn King-16~

jking@whitman.gmu.edu

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Closed into myself

Like a prison chamber

My once strong voice

Echoes through the halls

Reminding me

That I was once my own self

Not owned and controlled

by the voices of others.

jking@whitman.gmu.edu

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A TULIP


A tulip, a tulip, a bright yellow tulip.

It blooms in the summer and dies in the winter.

A tulip, a tulip, a bright yellow tulip.

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You are, and Shall Always Be


You are, and shall always be,

my pull into ecstasy-

without you my days

are without frame,

points of perspective

without a name-

I flounder in a world

of plenty,

and return with arms empty,

For you are, and shall always be,

the hunt that leads me to ecstasy.

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Test Prayer


Now I lay me down to study,

I pray the lord I won't go nutty.

If I fail to learn this junk,

I pray the lord I will not flunk.

But if I do; don't shed a tear,

Just put a rose behind my ear.

Tell my teacher I did my best,

Then pile my books upon my chest.

If I should die before I wake,

That's one less test I'll have to take!!


----------Suffering Student

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If



If I were a bird I would fly in the wind......

If I were a ship I would sail on the seas'......

But since I am not

And I am only me I will walk through eternity.


Wa-Nay

Wallee 0811@webtv.net

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I came hear looking for something I lost.

Listening for the beat of a long forgotten heart.

Trying to feel the heat and the pain.

Remembering a bed by a creek and running naked through the trees.

Tina

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The Promise

Resting breath succumb as legend

Colors folding once surreal

Falling to define the promise

Care intrusted to the ancient

Tides that wash away the many

Turn in anguish to the question

Echoes from the most forgotten

Whispers faint received in solace

Haunting thirsting spawning now

Ridged upright light the moment

Reaching up to see the numbers

Display the brilliance always known


T. Nosredna

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In Love Again



I swore to myself

It wouldn't happen again

I vowed to myself

That this was the end

The end of this loving

This yearning so strong

I said I was over you

But oh I was wrong

Now here it is quite later

And my love for you

Is now even greater

I spend all of my time

Thinking of you

I'm in love with you again

And there's nothing you can do

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Too young

innocence lost

taken away by those who care

or should have

angry, alone, cold

no one seems to care

problems that never should have been are thrust upon young, tender souls

yet we condemn them

No one asks to be hurt

the cycle of pain continues

there are no answers

only endless questions

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Homage to an artist(Warhol)

Vibrant

Alive and Colorful

flickering for just a brief moment

like so many of the stars

you lived in the FAST lane

drugs

parties

beauty

and then,

a gunshot

life often imitates art

and yours was so much like those

on the screen,

brief, beautiful, violent.

false.

Than the screen goes blank and we are left

with fluff

to contemplate

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soft white specks

dance in the midnight air.

An eerie chill envelops my body.

As I look at this forlorn object I begin to see

Beauty

and Truth

On this cold, dark night,

in the middle of nowhere,

a tree speaks to me.

In a language only nature knows.


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Only seen against the night,

Engulfed in darkness, I am light.

Never moving, always still,

Motionless, a void I fill.

I have no eyes, I need not sight,

For my life is endless night.

I'm only seen from afar,

For I am a distant star.



Zach

Henderson

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MY MAN


I met this man today

His eye were as soft as clay

His lips were as smooth as silk

His teeth was as white as milk

His nose was flawless

He sensed what I saw

I saw the day with him

My nights filled with them

A loving that only he could give

He is why I live

He's my man

And I'll say it twice so that you can understand

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NO ONE

NO PLACE TO GO
AND NOTHING TO DO
IN THE LONELY NIGHT
ON THE DESERT ROAD
JUST YOUR FACE
IN MY MIND
LOOKING AT ME


AND SOUNDS OF THE DESERT


NOW IT STOPS


STRANGE CREATURE,
HALF SNAKE HALF WOMAN
BEHIND THE HILL
SHE IS LOOKING AT ME
SHE WANTS ME


STRANGE & COLD
EGSOSTING
WILD
SHE IS BEAUTIFUL


MORNING,
MY FACE IS OLD
MY ARMS ARE TIRED
IT IS ONLY A MEMORY
ON THE DESERT ROAD
LONELY


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"Dark-plumed whippoorwills

stir my imagination -

How vibrant their trills!"

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PAPER FROG

As we age

We look into the mirror and agree upon

"We're lovable creatures in the nude"


Golden and silverfish too and leaping paper frogs

All seem to be with heavy years

Our nostalgia increase wit time

All that remains are shadows of youth


All must come to an end

Except for my paper frog

For has no heart


He knows no defense

Is never offended

For he never knew a friend


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pressurize


There is a phone in my head

All it does is ring and ring

I can't get the noise to stop

If you think I'm crazy you may be wrong

Maybe it's YOU who dosen't belong

Maybe you are calling on that phone

If that's the case, leave me the hell alone

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Life's Storm...


A soft gray light

hit my eye

and tore my life apart.

The cool wind

took the warmth

and left a hollow soul.

Lightning pulled at my heart,

the thunder shook my steps,

and I was swept up in the storm.

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tears of blood

dress pure white

a bouquet of withered red roses

held within her hands

you cannot free her

she is now at rest

the bruises you caused

cannot hold her back

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Death to those who disobey

every night

every day

in the earth

in the sky

those who frown apon us

die



-HiGH DeNSiTY for HaKRZoFaMeRiCa@usa.net

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THE CONSERVATION


His drama seem to consume
My attention

Leaving me hanging on his
Every word
Holding on to some twisted
Message of hope

But finding the climax
Of his words instead
Imposes upon me this
Emotional response

Feeding him irony just
To hear his satyr


And now that he pauses the pleasure
Of company washes over me
Leading me to see my own
Internal need


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Solace-

Red-gold leaves

A cold, clear stream

The wind laughs

A playful child's laugh

Gentle voice

Shakes the trees

The frosty ground

Crunches underfoot

Geese sound

A jarring fanfare

With noble necks arched

They take flight.

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My Lily

The little prince longed

for his contentious rose;

I long for my lovely,

strong and sanguine lily.

She lacks spiteful thorns

and pretentious airs,

but abounds with warmth,

sincerity and honest emotions.

My lily grows stronger

and stronger; when placed

in the sun she multiplies

and spreads forth her long

graceful flowers.

My heart warms when I

gaze upon my lily,

and no matter how bad things are,

I am a peace with the world

when she smiles at me.

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(01/1998)


"ROSES OF DEATH"

bitter fragrance of roses

drifts heavily down the alleys

roses of death

in death-alleys

Welcome to town

you apostles of fate

Are you trying to drive us insane once again

Or yet merely

proof anew

that fragrance is

the most delicate form

of bad smell

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BE TRUE


The soul was out today

It said be true

Be true to who

It answered be true to you

be true to them

be true to the world.

How I said

It said be true

It did answer my question

but all it said was be true to you

be true to them

be true to the world.

I thought and thought and found the meaning

I meant Be true.

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Through the Velvet Darkness ~

I come down

and pick your body up

from frozen ground...

holding you unto me,

my sight is gone

breathing in the life

dark and alluring...

flickering tongue

longing to taste

the essence of your soul

engulfing me ~

as I place

my bloody kiss...

Ah, my love

your scarlet pain

now is mine

and my violet tears

yours.

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The Cities of Man

By Anthony Maxwell


The strangers talk,
on the streets I walk,
alone in the cities of man.


The people I see,
have nowhere to be,
on the streets of man.


The houses of God,
were once made of sod,
that line the cities of man.


Where birds did fly,
structure fills the sky,
in the valley of man.


Would our God be proud?
Were our prayers too loud?
In the hearts of man.

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Need me


If you need me

I'll be there

No matter what, when, and where.

Together we can talk it out,

Or I'll just sit and listen

while you sort it out.

Because you mean so much to me

There for you, I'll always be.

No matter what the problem is

Remember, it's your happiness

That means the most to me.

If you need me just let me know.

A Friend like you I will never let go.

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a friend i had, had to leave so soon

he left without saying good-bye

didn't even get a last chance to glance at the moon

but now i'm sure he's somewhere in the sky.

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The poem is due tomorrow

It shall not cause me sorrow,

I shall begin today

And write it all MY way

And thus will have my say.

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I fell asleep so I could dream,

about you and our time together.

I undoubtedly smiled at the simple

thought of you held against me.

Hearts beating in time with the wind.

Only you can make a man feel this way,

and if I never felt like this, I could

never have called myself a man.

So say it's true, that you love me too,

before I wake from dreamland and into

an existence without us, and you.


-J.J.C., 01-15-98

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BOOKS

BOOKS CAN TAKE YOU ANYWHERE,

TO THE AMAZONS OR TO SOMEWHERE FAIR.

BOOKS UNLOCK IMAGINATION,

IT WILL BRING YOU OUT OF YOU NATION.

YOU CAN BREATHE UNDERWATER, GO FAR, AND SWING THROUGH THE JUNGLE, TOO.

OR.. YOU CAN LAUGH, CRY OR JUST ENJOY WITH THE BOOK THAT WAS MADE FOR ME AND YOU.

GINGER-ALE@WEBTV.NET

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such a delicate night to be found

arched in amorous twine riddled prostration

suffering no one.

lark cries morning dew upon the backs of kneeling embraces..

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"Her"


A man sits,

Thinking of her.

Her eyes,

nose,

ears,

Her shoulders,

arms,

legs.

Also her gentle breasts,

When they rub against his hard chest.

He thinks of her lips,

When they moisturize his dry,

Aching mouth.

Of her hips,

When he holds them close as they make love.

Last he thinks,

"Do I love her?"

"Yes" he thinks to himself,

As he sits,

Still thinking of her.

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Friends are there to guide to show,

to help to wonder if anyone knows?

Friends are there to give moral support,

and to rekindle past friendships that have deteriorated.

Friends are there to listen and to give advice and opinions,

whether you want to hear them or not.

Friends are there to love and to care.

If your mad or sad you don't have to worry,

'cause you'll always have a friend at hand.

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Updated January 9th.


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Up on my forsaken limb

I look down on my village turned dim

Wondering if the view is better

Not for the meaning that may seem

Nor for the birds eye gleam

But for the words hidden like an unopened letter

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in the winter chill

the silvery moon

beams cascading down

like so many waterfalls of cold pure water

my reflection

on the lake

as i watch, my shadow

she is daring to move before me, dragging me further

music coming

on the joy-filled wind that is him

and i watch she and he

dancing perfect partners-fitting like lock and lost key

i watch them

then she

walking towards me

it's time to leave the dream

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---Perchance To Dream---

Oh joyous sleep

A time for escape

To briefly leave our world

To play in our minds

Our little fantasy place

We are the masters here

Ours is for the asking

To swim in stress-free pools

Relax in our sanctuary

Relish the tranquillity

However, short is our stay

Reality will come again

And all of it is lost

But it was there

And it will come again

To rejuvenate our souls

--Garco--

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-- Dream Tree --


Sitting under a tree

I'm dozing soundly

All of a sudden

I'm looking down on me

I fly overhead

I'm a beautiful bird

Looking down at myself

Still sleeping

What kind of dream is this?

Well....let's see!

Laughing, I drop a load

It splats on my arm

I jerk awake

Under the tree

I wipe it off as I stand

Looking around

Could it be??

--Garco--

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Untitled


Two bodies intertwined laying in the shadow of the moonlight

Caressing each other.

Every emotion being felt by just a single touch.

The heart and mind working together is a powerful thing.

The heart is the weapon.

The mind is the shield.

And we are all the victims.

Some choose the heart, some the mind.

But its our choice,

so choose and be happy.


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The color blue is very sad

the color red is awfully mad

The color pink is a blush,

And black is the color of the handle on my brush

Yellow is the sun

Orange is the fire,

Gray is the color of a fat or skinny wire

Green is the grass and white is a flower,

purple is the color of a grape that is sour

Tan is a puppy, brown is a bear,

Gold is a strand of golden blonde hair!

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No more words, Gather you in my arms

Butterfly kisses, Gently close your eyes

Feathery fingers, Trace your sullen smile

Hold you closely, Listen to my heartbeat

Rock you slowly, To a forgotten lullaby

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Lie


Close your eyes

You won't feel a thing

They lied.

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JOHN JACOB WAS SUCH A TERRIBLE GUY, HE SOLD HIS SOUL TO GO

TO HELL, HE TRIED TO COME BACK, DEVIL SAID, "HEY BOY, I THOUGHT

WE HAD A DEAL "SO HE TOOK HIS HAND AND MADE A MEAL, HE SOLD

HIS SOUL FOR A BUCKET OF BLOOD, MAYBE HE SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THAT WHEN HE WAS CAUGHT IN THAT FLOOD


TITANIC

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A rose blooms
a dove takes flight
a child embarks
on his dreams for the night


The sun drops
the clouds reflect
the breeze begins
its hypnotic affect


One's love smiles
one's heart flies
one's eyes caress
the star filled skies


A memory haunts
one's eyes fill with tears
the memories build
over the passing years

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People go crazy all the time

It sucks

I don't understand why they do

How can you let yourself go crazy?

It is your choice to loose your mind.

Right?

I believe it is.

So do the little pink elephants

They're my friends

I talk to them a lot

Sometimes I have to beat them all up

Then they all hurt me

I cry when they hurt me

It's so sad

Crazy people are so weird

That's why I don't talk to them

Only to the elephants

They're my friends

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1\5\97

M.BEERLEY


CATHEDRAL ON HIGH

YELLOW SKY, WATCH

THE ROLLING TIDE.

GREEK GODDESS IN LIFE

MOUNTAIN PEAKS RISE

SHIPS ON PASSING BY

THE LONELY CRY OF THE

SHRIEKING SKY

VOICES OF CHILDREN

PASSING BY. ONLY LIFE

ITSELF CAN ANY FIND.

HERE LIE THE

STRENGTH OF MIND

SETTING FREE, AND WONDERING

WHY. BIRDS CHANTING

THE SCREAMING WINE

OF TIME LEAVING BEHIND

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'butterflies'


love's intense burning fingers-

strangling my heart

adding weight to my lungs

till breath - no longer natural-

becomes a conscious thing

and the pounding in my chest

moves to a drum

fluttering in my stomach...

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feelings of contrition

frolic freely in my murky reality

how can you declare love to one

and recite the verb to another

ashamed and hurt

i watch as my life flies before me

like an old-fashioned motion picture

with no rewind in sight

to hurt one is to hurt another

there is no triumph

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CAR RIDE


WE DROVE DOWN THE VACANT STREET
ALL YOU COULD HEAR WAS OUR STEADY HEARTBEAT
MY DARLING SAT BEHIND THE WHEEL
EVERYTHING WAS COLD AND STILL


BUT OUR LOVE SHATTERED THE COLD
FOR IT COULD NEVER BECOME OLD
THROUGH THE NIGHT WE DROVE ALONG
THE RADIO PLAYED A CHARMING LOVE SONG


HE PLACED HIS HAND ATOP OF MINE
AND I HOPED WE'D STAY HERE FOR ALL TIMES
AS WE TURNED AROUND THE BEND
I HOPED THAT WE'D NEVER GET TO

THE END

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You secrete your cigar beneath

my wind-slathered tree with

my mistletoe perched on your nose

and you hand me your pen as my

paper cuts menstruate between your legs

and i chisel through your armored novel

and my palms steep through your ink

as your fingers paint my maiden blouse

and our buttons combust

and our portraits conceive

while our skin-quenched breath pools

our panting cuffs into sculpting roots

Windtree@webtv.net

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Hollow


I look in the sky

And I see

What I would like to be

A star

A moon

A planet

Or dust

Something that is not me

I sit and stare

At things above

As if it would not be

The stars

The moon

The planets

The dust

I guess I am just me


JIM 01/05/98

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RIVERS

RIVERS FLOW WHEN THEY FLOW LOW

ITS LIKE A DAY OF GLOOM

BUT DAYS RIVERS FLOW HIGH

ITS LIKE A DAY WITH SUNSHINE

WHEN WE CRY ITS LIKE THE RIVER

RUNS LOW AND GLOOMY SORROW FILL THE AIR

SOME TIME YOU FEEL IN DESPAIR

BUT THERE'S DAYS OF HAPPINESS

THE AIR IS FULL OF HOPE AND JOYFULNESS

THAT'S WHY WE SHOULD KEEP OUR HAPPINESS

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HELP ME


I can't hold on

I'm losing my grip

somebody save me

Don't let me slip

I feel like I'm falling

down a bottomless pit

the bottom of my problems

I will never hit.

I scream and cry

but no one hears

somebody put an end

to all my fears

I can't handle all

of this on my own

into my soul a knife has been thrown

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Honey


When you touch me

I close my eyes

To feel your touch

Melt

Skin to skin

As your lips draw to mine

I taste the sweetness

The softness

Mixed with the hardness

That is you

As your body comes to my body

I feel you

And smell you

And taste you

You are like sweet honey

To my soul.


Theresa

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FLOWING BLOOD


the blood flows through my veins

like a river covered in the sunlight

moving in a rhythm

gently flowing

to its destination

slowly growing older

with each passing day

till the river no longer moves

and the blood no longer flows

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TEA KETTLE


the tea kettle sits

on the stove alone

turned on

and the water boiling

it starts whistling

like the sheer scream

of a mans soul

trying to escape

the powerful hands

from satin himself


Shannon Brown

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Alone



Here alone I sit and gaze.

I often wonder why I'm so crazed.

To this girl I gave my heart.

I just knew till death do us part.

But then one day out of the blue,

she seemed tired of this I knew.

Tired of the love that I gave.

I knew the romance I could not save.

She was gone like the wind in that cold December rain.

Now here I sit with nothing but the pain.


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A FRIEND

A FRIEND IS ONE TO CHERISH

SOME TIMES IT COULD LEAD UP TO MARRIAGE

BUT IF YOU ARE NOT IN THE RIGHT CARRIAGE

YOU MIGHT LOOSE A FRIEND

THAT'S WHY ITS GOOD ALWAYS TO COMPREHEND

ALWAYS LEND A HAND

AND ALWAYS UNDERSTAND

A FRIEND IS LIKE A DOLLAR IN YOUR POCKET

IF YOU'RE POCKET IS BROKEN IT WILL FALL OUT

AND YOU'LL LOOSE YOU'RE FRIEND WITH OUT A DOUBT.

RICHARD SERRANO PPCS@WEBTV.NET


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her hair was shining diamonds
her eyes were burning coal
she sat there like a cat asleep
slowly getting cold


her tears were like raindrops
her face was the silver moon
she looked up like a flashing light
and smiled like a flower bloomed


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STEADFAST


Closing my eyes,

letting thoughts wander around,

opening doors,

touching memories that flaunt us two entwined.

You inside me, am vulnerable.


Bodies dovetail,

never wanting the moment to end,

yet fate bestows tainted tomorrows.

Anywhere I go there you are.

Visions of us echo throughout my mind.

No welcomed glimpses,

no rushes of warmth

from delicate kisses,

it's all you.



Audrey Evans


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Spaceless




Who is breathing in my house?


silence when I seek


Who is stretching alive and sinking into space?


heartbeat, solid waste


Who evades my sunlight day?


radio and chatter


dissipate and scatter no life


ether of breath.

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NEW LIFE

A MOMENTS PLEASURE

THE JOINING

A FUSION OF SENSES

OUR BODIES ENTWINING

A MOMENTS RAPTURE HERALD THE COMING

AND NEW LIFE BEGINNING

THE WOMB MOTHERS BODY FEEDING

HER WORLD MY WORLD

IN MY EARS ECHOING

AND WITH THE PANGS

CONTRACTIONS COMING THIS COLD

THIS COLD WORLD i ENTER SCREAMING

ALL AROUND ME COLD AND GRAY

SO MANY SOUNDS A JUMBLED AFFRAY

SOME MANY SHADOWS PEER MY WAY

ITS A NEW BEGINNING

MY FIRST DAY...

By Denniston stewart Copyright © 1998.

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I AM ABEL


LESSONS TO LEARN IN LIFE THAT MOVES SO FAST,

WISHING ON A STAR THAT WE'LL MAKE IT THERE ALAS,

WHERE YOU SAY, WELL ANSWERS LIE IN YOUR WAY,

STAY TRUE TO YOU AND NEVER STRAY OFF THE PATH

THAT THIS DAY HAS PREPARED.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR! May this year bring you special blessings. Thank you for sharing your poems.

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My first poem while on the net

I must first get my mind set

to write of love

or just of time

whatever it be

it must be rhyme

I shall not try

to be too cool

For this is my

golden rule

Instead I'll be

just friendly you'll see

Till I know more of you

then I'll write free

Wolrad/97

Mark Darlow

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Dancing:


The music is slow

and yet my heart beats fast

Together you and I

It's magic and we know it

Whisper to me of that night

Play our song again

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The melody of a familiar song triggering fond memories of you

Bringing about a smile...and a tear

Reminding me of cherished time spent together

Still remembering the good times had

Pondering upon what good times their might have been...

As I wish you were here to share in the warmth your memory brings me

I close my eyes and sing along

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Love


I feel it in my heart,

It's been there from the start,

It will always stay there,

No matter if he doesn't care,

Some say love is blind,

But I say love is mine,

Love is filled with hope and joy,

So don't treat it like a toy,

It is a wonderful thing,

Not just an old saying,

Protect it with all your might,

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Under the Spell of Love



Being under the spell of love keeps your feet off the ground, your head in the clouds, and your heart in the palm of your own loved ones hand. When he holds your body close to his, or presses his soft, satin lips against your rosy, red, blushing cheek your blood races through your body and back to the mile-a-minute beat of your heart. The heart held in the palm of his hand.

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I Believe

Teaching dreams to a world unseeing,

Taking a willing hand.

Showing beauty within this life

while building upon the inner spirit

of Christ inside us all.

Filling hearts with love and joy,

giving someone hope who might have none.

Spreading Peace as universal,

for just a brief moment in time....

I believe in Santa Claus

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Wanted


It's a want.

Its a need.

To be fulfilled

Would be cruel.

Cruel to the one who I want.

Who I need to hold me when my nights are rough.

It's nothing more than lust,

And it's killing me.

Yearning for your nearness.

Dreaming you're mine.

That's all I need in this sublime.

I don't know how to get you

And I don't know how to let you go.

You're wanted.

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Runaway


Runaway, far, far away,

Leave the past behind,

Forget your troubles and your worries,

Leave the pain behind,

Runaway, far, far, away,

In another lifetime,

In another year,

Maybe we wouldn't fear,

The passing of our loved ones so dear,

Runaway, far, far, away,

Escape this pain today.

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The NIGHT

whispering

its sweet desired to me

caressing

the curvature of my body

surrounding

my entire body whole

capturing

the essence of my soul.


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American Dream

Father at work while mother tends the home

Children scurry off to school leaving her alone

They give her a hug and kiss

She smiles as if in complete bliss

Secretly she hurts

Every night and day

For her life has floated away

But, she proceeds with her head held high

She is careful that her family does not see her cry

She has been confined to a kitchen to cook and clean

Her thoughts are never heard, nor seen

She wants more from her life

She wants to be more then a mother and wife

To be her own person

To be what she could

But she can't ,

She was brought up to believe that this is right

I don't know why

Women are equal better at best

So why are women condemned to a lie

That men are better then the rest

For women to become a person it is a struggle

Men have an easy ride

Why is this when both abide.

The American dream

Where the kitchen wife fades without a fight

Where the family is always serene

Has been blinded by new rays of light

No longer will women fade with the night

No longer will weak women just be

Because of strong women like you and me.

- Amanda Albert

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YOU

When I think of You I feel a warm embrace

Your memory bringing a smile to my face

Though the memories may be precious and few

They will live on forever within my love for You

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Never let to live
Always let to try
To die


Sitting alone
The moon sees to stare
I look on in fear


Will I wake
The sun shines in
Another day I have to take



11/20/96

I wish for a day I would be able to look in your eyes again.


To feel your touch would set my soul on fire.


to smell your perfume, as you walked by, would bring me alive


I fear and realize never again shall I love anyone more than you.


davearoo@webtv.net

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Searching

Searching for words to describe these intense emotions held inside

Unshared love built up within my soul, unable to be shown or felt

No phrases eloquent enough to do them justice

Nor describe their degree of measure

Unable to hold them back, I release them into the night sky

In an explosion of fireworks, filling the air with a kaleidoscope

of color and sound

Showering down to the earth to blissfully surround you

In the blanket of my love

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spread your wings of silver and gold

my little pet you are so bold

take your time and fly so free

you mean so very much to me

my love, my dear, my darling yet

i love you most as dragon pet

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I dream of you, that still holds true

Your breath in my ear, your arms drawing me near

Your kisses so sweet, when your lips I would meet

There's still a place I can go, to let your memory flow

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Shy

I'm so shy I could cry

When he catches my eye

My heart skips a beat

I loose control of my feet

my mouth gets so dry....

I'm so shy I could cry

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Searching my life

Sifting through untrue friends

Exploring creative releases hoping to find my niche

Never quite fitting in anywhere, I follow my own tune

Not caring whether I'm different or not,

Just asking to be myself

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*** A Tear***

A tear is shed for one

A tear of hope, sadness, and regret

A tear that endorses fun

The tear which is a symbol

A symbol that will guide the one to the light

In which makes one joyful

A Christmas cheer

Given for one

Shed through a tear

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Tears

Tears shed by many a starry night

I relinquish my hurt to the night bird in flight

In anguish and pain, in sorrow for the rain

My tears falling freely life's hurt flowing forth

Down to the creeks passage to the river banks just north

Flowing down the river to the vast open sea

Spilling into the open for the whole world to see

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Zero

Minus, Less than zero times four

Demeaned and judged by everyone

Leave me alone, I accept you whoever you are!

Where has the kindness gone?

Placing others self-worth on their monetary value

Look past the materialism and into someone's true self

Stop your false conformity and maybe then things will make more sense

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MY EAGLES GRASP CAN NOT MAINTAIN

THE SECRETS I HAVE INSIDE

SO I SPREAD MY HANDS OUT HIGH

LET THE BEAUTY OF FREEDOM

FLOW LIKE WATER ON A SEA OF PEACE

SO HOLD IT IN PLACE IT CLOSE

TRY NOT TO LET IT CHOKE

THE SECRETS I HOLD INSIDE

COULD MAKE A GROWN MAN CRY

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Traveling through my life

Stopping at each crossroads in-between

Reflecting upon lessons learned from the past

Wary of each new step I take into the future

Not placing expectations on anything or anyone

Just trying to determine what today holds for me

And if I will live to see tomorrow

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Integrity


For all the lives

That touch ours

It is a wonderful thing

To look behind

And see those that follow

Not because we chose

To lead

But because they

Where caught up

In the integrity

We carry so dear.


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"Broken Sanity"

A strong man
A cold wind
A bottle of Gin


Restless nights
Goose bumps
Broken Sanity


A tired man
A stronger storm
An empty bottle


Cabin Fever
Frozen toes
Broken Sanity


A worn man
A never ending snow
A piece of broken bottle


A dead man
Bleeding wrists
Broken Sanity

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Like a problem they try to solve me
Never understanding that I only trust in fate.
They will look at me and ponder me and never will they see
I like to be alone and love to feel their hate.


They never seem to care
I know they laugh when I stand alone in the rain
They say what they dare
No one else could stand it like I can stand this pain.

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EARLY THE EVENING CREPT
AND EARLY SOON SHE WEPT-
SUBSIDING SIGHT,
RECEDING LIGHT,
AND DARKNESS CAME WITH FRIGHT.


HIGH, ABOVE THE GROUND,
AND STRETCHED HER ARMS TO OPEN AIR-
REACHING,
PLEADING THE DAY TO STAY
KNEELING,
BEGINNING TO PRAY


HOLDING TO HER BREAST, A CANDLE,
SYNTHETIC SUN-
A SULLEN,
PATHETIC SADNESS


AND HER, A NEW SKY,
OPENED ARMS AND STRETCHED AGAIN


A NEW DAY,
A BIRTH FROM END...


A MOTHER.

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come to the buffet

there's lots of variety

try the fried chicken

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If you were a ship and I the sea

I would welcome your vessel to sail upon me

If you were the sunshine and I were the rain

I would clear up my skies so you could shine through again

I would travel the earth just to share in your smile

Cross each country on foot just to be with you a while

Walk upon the hot sand and dance through the fire

If it would prove to you I loved you..you are my souls desire

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Purple Sector


The

economy

is

anarchy

The economy is anarchy.


Poetry

is

pornography

Poetry is pornography.


Our

galaxy

is

spinning.

Our galaxy is floating.


Step

inside

my

sanctuary.

And I shall prey in thy Temple.

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Into the night


Your cry haunts

like no other,

It screams of

time lost.

You will not walk

among us anymore

We took it all away.

I don't blame you for the

hatred you must have felt.

When we never looked

back while you faded.

I felt your sorrow

and saw it in your eyes.

You said goodbye

and I cried...

Into the night.

-htz

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